I swear my heart stopped beating

Or at least if sure felt that way. Then I woke up. I'm still thanking God it was just a bad dream. One that let me know exactly how my Mother In Law felt the day the police came to the door and told her that Chris had died.
It feels like a hole in your heart. I get ahead of myself though.
It was a dream nothing but a bad dream. Of a place I didn't recognize, but seemed familiar. It was home in the dream. For some reason there was a fire a few blocks away. No worry right? In this dream Bryce stayed home with the dog in the back yard. The backyard had 2 sheds in it. Don't ask me about that detail but it sticks in my mind. I remember being with a friend. Then going home. Except the firemen wouldn't let me get back to the house. I told them my son was there. The next thing I recall, after all dreams kinda jump from place to place and all that, is being back at a neighbors house and watching the fire flash and jump over several houses right into the backyard. Then the next thing is someone saying the fire department was monitoring and at that time the dog stopped making noise and all signs of life including Bryce stopped. They were sorry but Bryce was GONE! There is no describing the feeling. The world went blank just all white, and my heart felt an empty hole tear through it. Then I woke up. I just couldn't shake the feeling of being so afraid that I was going to lose Bryce. Phil had to drag Bryce into our bed before going to work. I'm still trying to shake that feeling of dread. If you've read this far thanks for listening/reading. I know crazy thing to write about but I just can't seem to shake this dream. I feel so exhausted like I never got any sleep. Yet I'm afraid to sleep because of the dream. I guess I'll try to get some layouts done now.

Mele Kalikimaka!

That's Hawaiian for Merry Christmas. I want to wish everyone a Very Merry Christmas. Not just here in the U.S.A. but all my friends that I have gotten to know around the globe. To all my cousins that I have had the chance to communicate with this last year, and those I so miss and have not. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas Day.

OH GREAT!

I need to take Francis to the doctors to confirm it but I think he has the chicken pox! Sure looks like it anyway. At first I was trying to figure out what he's been eating that could be causing his eczema to flair up. After all he was vaccinated a 2yo. Then he got out of the shower tonight going "MOM this itches SOOOO BAD!" I took one look and thought "oh great!" He may be vaccinated but he has chicken pox. I looked up some visuals online and it looks the same. Poor kid. Now I have the itches just thinking about it. At least Phil and I have already had the chicken pox. Bryce well it might not be so bad if he gets them but he's been vaccinated too. Blah!

Just one week left

and I am still not into the Christmas thing. Can you tell I have to make my cards today print them up and get them ready to mail. That way when we are out tomorrow for Contenders for the Faith I can mail them out. Matter of fact!!! We won't go shopping till next weekend. Heck maybe I should stop playing around and get that card designed a printed what do you think?

Yes Josiah

We have never met your mother in person. Still we feel like we know her like a sister. In the bible, it says

“And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19 NIV

You, your siblings, and your mom needed help. God called on our hearts to do his biding. I hope that this is a lesson of how God answers prayers in the most surprising ways. God is great yes, but God it also good to us all the time. Remember that.

I got a few layouts done.

At First Evangelical Church Vancouver we always had a Christmas Eve show, or play. For 2005 our last Christmas there it was a play that gave a first hand account of the birth of Christ, as witnessed by the Inn Keeper. -December 24, 2005-
Kit used is Mid Winter's Eve by Christy Sturm at Butternug Squash and NDISB.

For the Christmas show at Francis’ preschool, Portland Christian, Francis got the part of the Inn Keeper. December 2001
Kit used is Mid Winter's Eve by Christy Sturm at Butternug Squash and NDISB. Circle stitches by Gina Miller. Font in title is FrancineHmkBold, journaling is Pea Girly Girls Print.

This is what you get with the lights off, the tree lit, a flash, and 2 active boys. A really cool ghost effect. Francis and Bryce had a great time goofing off just for the pictures. December 2006.
Kit is Rustic Christmas by Shandy Vogt at Elemental Scraps.

Winter is Here!

Yep snow is on the ground and it's COOOOOOOLD! That and I haven't taken any of my pain medication or muscle relaxers for a week now. So I'm sore but I can think straight at least. Can you tell? I redecorated! I love it when I can think straight enough to look at code and understand it, kinda sorta. LOL!

Check out my Challenge!

Butternug Squash Forums I've got an impromptu (did I spell that right?)challenge going on at BSD. Stop by take the challenge and I'll give you my homemade calendar file for this month and next just so you can do the challenge. Just post in the comments or email me and I send you the file.